Senioritis

How is it that I haven't even started my senior year and I already have senioritis? It makes sense since I took a 10-day class in May and have had a month-long break before taking another summer class. I am now taking a statistics course required for my major and it doesn't look too difficult, so why am I dreading it so much?

The simple answer is I got a taste of being done with school and I really liked it. During my break, I have been working full time and I actually really like it. I like having a schedule with due dates that do not happen at 11:59 at night. I like being able to turn my brain off after 5, and on the weekends without feeling like I forgot to turn something in. I like being on a schedule where I am able to get things done, like go to the gym every day, and be able to go on the jet ski at sunset with my boyfriend.

As I have been exploring this taste of adulthood, I have learned new recipes and have dabbled in cooking and eating healthier. I also have been working on my physical health at the gym and putting in more effort to work out and try different things there. I also am prioritizing my happiness by putting in more effort to my mental health and my relationships.

Even though I do not make nearly as much money yet as I would like, I have more financial freedom than I have in the past and I am very much enjoying that. I do not feel guilty for spending money shopping or going out for dinner. That is another way that my mental health has been improving. I enjoy going shopping even just to look at things I like and browse the shops in my area. My boyfriend and I also have been trying to be more active citizens in our community and are trying to attend more events our community has. For example, last month we attended a craft faire and farmers market that was held in Downtown Wilmington and we really enjoyed it.

Going back to school and having to be locked in on school work on a different schedule each week is just very unappealing to me right now. I have to remind myself that I am almost done and it won't go on for much longer. I also keep hearing from everyone to enjoy this time, which I do understand but I want the fun aspects of school not so much the work parts.

If you also are struggling with this. my best advice is to find time for yourself each day even if that means watching an episode of your favorite show, or taking a walk in your neighborhood. That is something I have been trying to prioritize and it always seems to help when I am in a bad mood.

On a completely different note, I am looking forward to graduation even more I think because I did not get a high school graduation due to COVID. I am excited to finally have that moment for myself and experience a real graduation. I feel like I slept walk through my first 2 years of college because of the effects of the pandemic and I am looking forward to breaking out of that pattern in my senior year and in my future.